Eastern States 20 Miler 2018

Me and my girl, Lisa Gina Grafton (who raced VERY VERY well with 8:47 avg wahoooo!! GET IT LISA!).

I may be training for Sugarloaf Marathon in May but running this spring has been far from a traditional marathon training cycle. My hips are decidedly weak and my hamstring often cramps up on hard runs; consequently I’ve been doing physical therapy 2x a week for about 6 weeks. I’ve backed off of speedwork and most tempo runs to focus on maintaining a marathon training distance of 60-70 mpw. And then there’s my stomach. Trust me, I don’t want to go there, but today we’re going there. Crappity crap crap. WTF body? What is going on here? I’m not injured, but my running has been off. In all honesty I feel like I’ve been on the struggle bus since I PR’ed at the SSYMCA 5k in January (19:48 wahoo). On a positive note my athletes are kicking ass in their training runs nailing 4×1 mile repeats, 800s, tempo runs, you name it. It’s been awesome to watch their progress even if my own has been rather limited.

My body’s hodgepodge of issues led me to sign up for Eastern States 20 miler with the intent of running it as social training run with my friends Lisa and Eric. My initial race plan was to run the first 14 miles at a 7:30-7:40 pace  (estimated, ideal GMP) and then see what I had left for the final 6.

[Sidenote] Do you have any friends who you’re not sure exactly when or how you became such good friends? Yea, that’s Eric Wheeler and Lisa Grafton. When it comes to Wheeler sometimes we chat a lot. Sometimes we don’t talk for weeks. He’s a crazy triathlete who has been incredibly supportive over the years- not to mention that he’s a physical therapist. It’s possible I have a small ulterior motive for our friendship. Muhahaha. I may or may not have sent him videos of my feet in the past asking him to diagnose my pain from 60 miles away. I consider myself lucky the man hasn’t blocked me on all forms of social media. Lisa Grafton is my athlete, my sister from another mister, my person on this Earth who takes my calls at whatever hour of the day or night. Imagine any awkward question you might have about dating, body parts, sex, bodily functions during running, basically anything mortifying that you’re probably better off asking Google or Siri… right, well, I ask Lisa. Lisa is my Siri, and she doesn’t make me feel judged (unlike Siri, that judgy B)

Oh yea, the race… Eastern States 20 miler is a point to point race that begins in Maine, runs along about 19 miles of New Hampshire coastline and ends after you take 2 steps into Massachusetts. If you plan on running this in the future be aware that the race logistics take a moment to wrap your head around. This year runners parked at Winnacunnet High School in Hampton, NH and were bused to the starting line in Kittery, ME. There athletes waited in a local high school until race start at 11 am. The race route runs along the coastline, is incredibly flat with a downhill grade and if you’re lucky you’ll get a tailwind to boot! The race finishes about two steps over the Massachusetts state line and is a hair over 20 miles. There the finishers are bused back to to Winnacunnet High School for post-race food, awards and bathrooms (no showers though).

Wheeler picked me up around 6:30 am to make it to the buses in New Hampshire by 8 am. We… errr, I chatted mostly about the tragedy that I brought jeans to wear post race and that in the absence of a post-race shower I will have to wash said jeans. You read that right: I will be forced to wash my jeans. Whyyyyyyy!?! Wheeler simply didn’t understand my feminine plight. Naturally this fruitful discussion passed the hour long drive up to New Hampshire.

We arrived at the starting line around 830 am, met up with Lisa and had 2.5 hours to kill. What on Earth would we do for 2.5 hours?? Thankfully I’m a chatty one with little to no shame so we played a little game of “remember that time I….” Guys, remember that time last year I pretended I was buying a house so I could talk to the cute real estate agent in my office building? (Technically, I’m not NOT looking for a house… turns out he’s engaged. But we’re buds now, so its cool).  Remember the time last fall I couldn’t figure out why I was having digestive issues while running so I spent the better part of a week texting Wheeler to diagnose why I was dying a slow and painful death? Are you doing anything different Kass? … NO! I SWEAR NOTHING!!– Think Kass. Anything different??…. Wait a sec- I have been eating a lot of figs lately. …. Yep, that’ll do it. STAY AWAY FROM THE FIGS KASS.  … whoopsies.

Wheeler, Lisa and I played that game for a while and the hours passed. I wasn’t nervous; mostly I just felt impatient and ready to run. My body was a little thrown off by the later race start. Early morning I had dry cereal (my go-to pre-run. It’s weird, but it’s what I eat.), at 8:30 I ate a cliff bar and at 10:30 I had a half a honey stinger waffle. As I think back to my pre-race ritual I suppose I could have/ should have drank more water. I don’t feel like I avoided water, but apparently my body disagreed.

The race started promptly at 11 am and my mind felt at ease. It’s just a catered training run with a bunch of other runners and some beautiful views of the ocean. I ran this race last year too, but this year was different. This year I was alone. I spent the early miles reflecting on last year’s race; instead of feeling sadness at every mile I felt very much at peace. Memories aren’t painful anymore, they’re just memories. I guess this means I’m healing. So I’m going to do exactly what I love to do; I’m going to keep on running.

The miles ticked away for the first half of the race: 7:41, 7:36, 7:37, 7:38, 7:35, 7:27, 7:30, 7:28, 7:28. I felt good, really good. My breath was even, my stride was balanced and I kept my watch on lap pace so I could stay on top of each mile split. My primary concern was the amount of water I was getting in on the run. Not only does this race have water stops every 2.5-3 miles (IMO not enough stations), but the stations had PLASTIC CUPS! Have you ever tried to bend a plastic cup to funnel water into your mouth? I assure you, it doesn’t work very well. By mile 10 I started to get very concerned that I wasn’t taking in enough. I know how much I typically drink during a marathon and during a training run and my intake on this run was startlingly low. By the third station I started taking 2 cups, but it didn’t matter. It was already too late.

Miles 11-14 is where my body started to unravel. You can’t see it in the paces (7:24, 7:22, 7:26, 7:21), but I felt it in my stomach and eventually my heavy legs and clouded thoughts. With no race portapotties on this portion of the course I kept my eyes peeled for other options. I may have had to hurdle some caution tape, but out of thin air the gods answered my prayers and sent me a construction portapotty. Unfortunately during this side shuffle somehow I stopped my watch and saved the run. Not a big deal, except I wasn’t sure exactly how far I had run. Was I on mile 13? 14? 12? I simply couldn’t remember and this race has its mile markers written in chalk on the ground (easily missed, especially if you’re hallucinating).



Miles 15-20 were dicey. I was getting progressively more dehydrated and had a stomach in knots. Instead of descending my splits I quickly turned to survival mode and focused on maintaining my effort. My watch splits are deceiving because I had to stop 2 more times for the bathroom and paused my watch… something I typically wouldn’t do in a race, but this was now just a training run. Splits were: 7:19. 7:22, 7:19, 7:23, 7:32, 7:35. My mind was abuzz with a relentless tirade of one singular thought:  Just get to the next mile. Just get to the next mile. I wasn’t actually sure how many miles I had left… 3… maybe 4? Who knows. Definitely not the police man I asked. I refused to go into panic mode. I refused to allow worry or fear envelope my thoughts. My thoughts were foggy and emotionless. They were simple and consistent: Just get to the next mile. DNF’ing was never an option. I didn’t doubt my ability to finish. I just had to get to the next mile, and then the next. One mile at a time. It was the only way I was going to finish. I credit this mental focus to my being able to push through the physical defeat I was experiencing with every stride.

I crossed the finish line in 2:32:27 (7:35 splits) exhausted and with sharp pains in my stomach, but it was done. I had finished and finally allowed myself to stop running. Shivering and a little disoriented Eric and I reconnected and took the bus back to the high school. Once back I changed into my jeans and my body started to officially revolt. I’ll save the yucky details, but it was a rough go of it. I wasn’t interested in eating or drinking; I just wanted to curl up in a ball and moan for a few hours. Ohhhhhhh, so this is what dehydration feels like!?! Fun times. I made it back home by 6:30 pm, forced myself to eat some chicken soup and crackers and then curled into bed.

I continued to experience some dicey symptoms of dehydration Monday and Tuesday so I booked an appointment with my PCP, had my labs run and got the official go-ahead to run again. The doc shook his little fists at me as he announced in a foreboding tone, “You lucked out this time. But if this happens again you could bleed out and need immediate surgery.  If it happens again STOP RUNNING IMMEDIATELY.” Ok maybe he didn’t literally shake his fists at me, but a warning like that warranted a little fist-shaking imagery. Am I right? ….Regardless, I’m not worried. The lesson: BRING YOUR OWN DAMN WATER FRENCH AND SUCK IT DOWN LIKE THERE’S NO TOMORROW.


Behold the promise land.


The silver lining: my run friends are AMAZING and checked in on me throughout the week- THANK YOU to Lisa, Eric, Greg, Anne, Jake, Sarah M, Sarah S., Mark, Laura, and anyone I may have missed. I have far more friends who I can talk about GI distress and intense dehydration with then I have ever imagined. Such an interesting way to feel so loved, but I guess I’ll take it. haha. ohhhhhhh well.

Up next: Washing my jeans 🙁 Then either Newport Half on April 14th or possibly Portsmouth Half on April 22. TBD.


Ohbladi  oblada. Life goes on bra. La-la how the life goes on…

Never stop running,



It’s like this ice cream was made especially for this training cycle.


The Physiological and Psychological Changes of Masters Athletes

Just because I haven’t been blogging, doesn’t mean I haven’t been writing. 🙂 Here is a paper I’ve been working on over the last weekend for on master’s athletes for my Kinesiology course and Sports Psychology graduate program. I view this paper as a very brief overview of the changes within Master’s athletes and am very curious as to how master’s runners can work to sustain their performances in spite of inevitable physiological changes that will unfold. If race performance is a great deal mental focus and dermination can master’s athletes use this to their advantage by focusing more on developing mental fitness later in life to overcome physical deterioration? Will they even want to continue to race and train or do their racing goals shift along with their physical thresholds?



A Review of the Physiological and Psychological Changes of Master’s Athletes

Ed Whitlock represents the first person over the age of 70 to run a marathon in less than three hours. Furthermore, he remains the oldest person to run a marathon in less than four hours at 85 years old. His accomplishments are extraordinary and his physical limitations have been thus far unmatched, however participation in endurance events in later life is growing. Master’s runners are broadly defined as athletes who continue to train and race in their sport in years beyond their peak physical performance. In marathon and road running this is generally defined as after age 40 years old, however research studies on masters athletes often examine runners in their 50’s, 60’s and beyond to truly comprehend psychological changes in performance due to lifelong training.

The past two decades of endurance sports has witnessed increases in master’s participation across the marathon (Leppers & Cattagini, 2012) and half marathon distance (Leyk et al., 2007). Tanaka and Seals (2008) reveal this increase in master’s athletics may be related to changes in the age related make-up of the world population at large. In 2000 6.9% of the world population was classified as elderly, however this number is projected to grow to 19.3% of the population by 2050 (Tanaka & Seals).  Physical changes to the cardiovascular, muscular, skeletal, neurological systems throughout the life-span are inevitable, however masters athletes’ sustained performances in spite of these physical declines have researchers pondering if and to what capacity age-related decline can be abated (Raeburn & Dascombe, 2007; Raeburn & Dascombe, 2009).


Literature Review

Physiological Factors

Physiological changes to the human bodily systems throughout the lifespan are well documented. Mitchell’s (2013) work provides a thorough description of what typical changes aging individuals will experience in regards to the cardiovascular, muscular and skeletal systems. Mitchell highlights how after 30 years old in both men and women there is a decline in bone mineral mass making the skeletal system more brittle and susceptible to breaking. Additionally the muscular system shows signs of decay in that both the number and size of muscle cells are reduced in older adults; a reduction in muscle mass inherently decreasing the amount of force the muscle can produce thereby often limiting older adults speed and power during short distance road races. Additionally, the cardiovascular system of an older adult yields several key changes from youth: the major blood vessels become more rigid, fatty deposits within these vessels increase, and the stroke volume, heart rate and maximum oxygen update (VO2 max) show clear declines with each successive decade of aging.

Even though physiological changes are ultimately inescapable in an aging body research examining master’s athletes reveals that the physical deficits in the aerobic and anaerobic systems may be attenuated and performance levels relatively sustained with ongoing training in later life.  Trappe’s (2007) longitudinal study of marathoners closely examines the connection between the cardiovascular system, skeletal muscle and running performance throughout the lifespan across runners who stopped running (now sedentary), runners who continue to run socially and athletes who continue to follow a training plan in later life. Trappe’s analysis reveals that continuing to run and train at a high level into later life can mediate but not wholly prevent a decline in aerobic capacity. Athletes who continued to intensely train had the highest performance and power outputs of all participants. Interestingly skeletal muscle of middle-aged fit runners seem to have adapted to lifelong running as their single muscle fibers are smaller, weaker, contract faster and produce less power than those who have lead sedentary lives (Trappe). While this may seem like a disadvantage, Trappe describes that these physiological adaptations have evolved due the low power and high endurance demands of long distance running.

Masters athletes’ endurance performances yield inevitable, albeit inconsistent, declines throughout the lifespan and correlated with declines in athlete’s levels of VO2 max (Raeburn & Dascombe, 2008). The research reveals a 10% decrease in VO2 max per decade after 25-30 years old in healthy adults. However, Raeburn and Dascombe highlight that endurance athletes who continue to train in their late 30’s, 40’s and early 50’s will be able to maintain their exercise performance during these decades. More specifically, even though an athlete’s lactate threshold and ultimately their speed/power will decline, these levels can increase relative to the VO2 max when training is sustained in throughout the lifespan. Similar to Trappe (2007), Raeburn and Dascombe’s findings (2008, 2009) on aerobic and anaerobic performance note that consistent high intensity endurance training and run volume throughout the lifespan can mediate the rate of age-related decline in VO2 max, stroke volume, muscle mass and blood volume.

Gender specific changes in running performance throughout the lifespan are highlighted in research specific to post-menopausal female master’s athletes. Menopause represents a series of changes that gradually occur (typically) in a woman’s 50’s and 60’s that lead to various physical and psychological changes. Sims (2016) discusses these changes in her book, Roar, which is dedicated to the unique training demands of female athletes. Hormonal changes during menopause cause a variety of changes for the woman athlete. As levels of progesterone (an antianxiety hormone with sedative effects) drop during menopause, sleep disturbances rise.  Additionally estrogen levels have been linked to REM sleep and has been shown to decrease how long it takes for you to fall asleep. Menopause is accompanied with a drop in estrogen and not surprisingly a reduction in restful sleep. Sims highlights how postmenopausal master’s athletes use protein less effectively; she noted these athletes should aim to both avoid soy protein and take in 15 g of whey isolate about 30 min before training and 25 grams of whey isolate and casein within 30 min after exercising. Female master’s athletes have gender specific training modifications to incorporate later in life to promote maximum athletic performance.

Even those individuals who do not sustain endurance training throughout the lifespan are able to make age-specific improvements in muscular strength, endurance and flexibility when they return to training (Mitchell, 2013). While these individuals are past their peak performance age, the human body is able to make gains relative to its starting point with safe progressive resistance training. It is likely that similar gains can be made within endurance performance during a reintroduction to running later in life.

Training Injuries

              While the human body is an amazing machine capable of making adaptations throughout training to be able to sustain activity over 24 hours, the complex machine does have its limitations that leads many masters athletes injured.  Knobloch, Yoon and Yogt (2008) reveal that master’s athletes are more likely to sustain overuse injuries, rather than acute injuries during training. Even more, the research highlights Achilles tendinopathy, anterior knee pain and shin splints as the most common overuse injuries of master’s athletes with Achilles tendinopathy being the predominant injury.

At first it seems that master’s athletes who sustain high levels of training are able to mediate the effects of aging (i.e. sustained performances and slowed declines in decreases in heart rate, cardiac output, power, etc.), however master’s athletes adjust their training to avoid injury. Knoblock, Yoon and Yogt (2008) identify master’s runners who run more than 4x a week are at the highest risk of an overuse injury. Master’s athletes who train more than 65 km/week, have more than 10 years of experience running or those who train on sand (vs. traditional asphalt) are also at a significantly increased risk for injury. There is common trend for master’s endurance runners to add cycling and swimming cross training activities to their weekly regime in an effort to maintain aerobic fitness and decrease the amount of physical pounding incurred from running alone. Randsell, Vener, and Huberty (2009) closely examine the rise of triathlon across master’s athletes and note a significant decrease in overuse injuries across triathletes than in master’s runners. Under closer inspection it seems that master’s athletes who sustain high performances are able to do so by making compromises within their training approach to stay injury-free and physiologically strong.



Psychological Factors

The mind-body connection is powerful, deep and undeniable. Hutchinson (2016) dedicates an entire book entitled Endure to examine the critical role the mind can play in maximizing an athlete’s performance and race experience. Schuler and Langen’s research (2007) reveals how positive self-talk and mantras can be used as an effective strategy to maintain motivation and focus and to buffer against the negative impact of psychological crisis (i.e. fear, doubt, mental fatigue, race distractions) that often impact race performance after the 30K. No matter what age of the endurance athlete mental preparation and the use of the mind as a training tool and motivator is essential in race performance.

One may argue that master’s runners can use their powerful mind to reach new performance limits beyond their seemingly physical capabilities. However aging also leads to neurological and cognitive declines in brain functioning (Mitchell, 2013). Then again, if master’s athletes who sustain high levels of training throughout the lifespan attenuate many of the physiological effects of aging, could this mean that these master’s athletes are able to sustain their neurological and cognitive functioning (and thereby their athletic performance) beyond that of the average sedentary adult?

Master’s athletes not only make adjustments to their physical training plan, but also their psychological approach to training and racing. Many master’s athletes acknowledge a clear shift away from competition and achievement towards social enjoyment and maintaining a sense of self (Dionigi, Horton, & Baker, 2013). At some point master’s athletes are forced to acknowledge the physical changes that slow their reflexes, flexibility and endurance and need to be willing to adapt or modify their training to compensate for their limitations (Dionigi, Horton, & Baker). Mental training consultants should incorporate this age-related shift away from competing for accomplishment and towards participating in endurance events for health management, social enjoyment and maintaining a sense of self should be into athletes’ training plan. Mental training consultants should thoroughly investigate masters athletes’ goals and training motivation before establishing an approach to training together. The mental training consultant may assist the master’s athletes in creating positive self-verbalizations around their unique goals (i.e. possibly to finish the race with their training partner, to celebrate post-race with their team, etc.)


The machine that is the human body has the ability to maintain high levels of performance functioning into the 40’s and 50’s and in some early 60’s when modifications are integrated into training. Master’s athletes who sustain high levels of exercise throughout the lifespan have the ability to attenuate but not wholly escape the physiological and psychological effects of aging. Changes in the cardiovascular, skeletal, neurological and cognitive domains may ultimately slow all masters athlete’s performances, however these racing beings are in a category of their own as they push the body and the mind to adapt to meet their relentless physical and emotional need to move.




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Love this book!


Operation Get Your Shit Together.

It should be no surprise to you that I am extremely interested in identity development and formation throughout the lifespan. That’s what this blog has really become, hasn’t it? A raw account of how I’m making my way through this world as I continually strive for the ups and learn to navigate the downs. Week in, week out that’s what I’m doing: I’m working hard to create the life I want to live (and create for my daughter) and tackling whatever unanticipated chaos comes my way.

At the risk of sounding like a broken record I was completely blindsided last October and I’m feel as if I’m still healing. If any of you readers out there have gone through a difficult break up or divorce maybe you share some insight into this process. Some days I’m completely in the moment, creating anew and enjoying my daughter, my job, my run; I’m just gleefully living my life. But then a song comes on or a feeling of doubt washes over me and I get pulled back into the squall. I fight the waves to find my way back to the relaxing moment I’m in but I can’t. I’m left feeling unsettled and distracted.  Will I ever truly be healed? Will I ever truly trust again? Does anything actually last forever? I deeply want to believe so. I have hope, the irrevocably complicated minx of an emotion. What am I hoping for? Some days its someone to share my life with. Other days it’s just a partner to laugh with in the moment. But most days I’m focusing on wanting to know that I can tackle with world on my own, well…. or at least with the help of my friends and family.

Last winter I wrote a post entitled Two Feet and I set some goals… resolutions I suppose… for myself. I even bought myself a white board for my bedroom and wrote “Get your shit together Kass” on the top. Have no fear, my shit isn’t a complete mess, however it’s undeniable that there’s room for improvement. On the white board I initially listed the my version of steps I want to take to get my life together and become an independent, self-sufficient woman and mother. A few of the steps included:

  1. Prioritize Lilly. Make sure she knows she is loved. Work hard to create the life I want her to live. Laugh and love.
  2. No boys allowed: no serious relationships for now.
  3. Career- Register for Sports Psychology Certificate program and keep your eye out for job opportunities.
  4. Cook- Learn to cook actual meals and consider (gasp) actually meal prepping on Sundays.
  5. Running- Prepare for Sugarloaf 26.2 in May and start to think about the plan for next fall.
  6. Social- Fill free time with family and friends who will fill your heart and make you laugh.
  7. Eat all the cookies. 🙂 Continue to seek out balance with nutrition.

I call it “happiness in a bowl.”

So how am I doing ? Well I’m nailing #7 like a boss.

I’m just living life. Some days feel totally balanced, happy and effortless. Other days have me getting a flat tire while driving the 2 miles from my parents to my sisters house. Yup, $250 down the drain. Sending out a special thank you to the pothole on Sussex Turnpike in New Jersey. Other days have had me getting sick with a stomach virus at work…in front of a client… FUUUUUCK… (quite possibly the most embarrassing day in my liiiiiiiiiiiife). Cheers to spending an entire day writing training plans in bed while watching episodes of New Girl. (Note: Greys Anatomy made me cry too often, damn tv dramas, so I have switched to New Girl about the affable, awkward chaos that ensues within the dating scene. It’s totes approps for me now.). I’m doing ok though- seriously. Most days I feel calm, rested and present. I get lonely, sure. But not as often. I’m filling my life with things that I want to do, people I want to surround myself with and memories that I want to make. I’m getting there. Just have to keep moving forward.

I finished Friday’s run at the Hingham waterfront.  <3


Running: My training for Sugarloaf has been a mild shit show. While I’m feeling much much better these days the swollen knee/weak hip from a few weeks back put my speed workouts on hold. I’m getting in a solid weekly volume of 50-60 mpw with a long run at 18 miles, but I haven’t done any of the traditional workouts that push my threshold into the gaining speed. My mental focus has been lacking. I’ve been feeling very distracted and mildly uninspired this cycle. I’m getting in the runs and I love racing, but something feels different. Well shit, something is different. I don’t have my running partner anymore. I don’t have a coach. It’s just me, myself and I on the road day in, day out. Hmmm. I’m processing this as I’m writing it- since I’ve sworn off silly boys and serious relationships I’m questioning whether or not I want to invest in getting a coach again to help me refocus for a new adventure when I’m ready. I’ve been bopping around the idea of doing an ultra next fall. Maybe I’m all talk, maybe not. I haven’t decided anything concrete. What I do know is that I’m looking to be inspired, to be challenged by someone or something and I’ll know it when it hits me.


Kass, Our love for you has been reassigned to other worthy beings. Please sit elsewhere. Our condolences, Mom and Dad.


I’ve been leaning on friends and family a lot over the past few months. After MV I headed down to New Jersey to spend time with my family. There I realized that my parent’s love for me now goes directly to their dogs, Ranger and Lilac.



Then again, my mom did bake me a Christmas ham in February so she is forgiven!! I haven’t had a ham in probably three years. Does anyone else get a hankerin’ for a good ham or is that just me?? ‘Tis okay. I’m comfortable with myself and the amount of ham, pineapple and sweet potatoes consumated that evening.



Cooking: While in Jersey I cooked my parents dinner, One-pan BBQ Chicken. The recipe calls for chicken thighs, bacon, peppers and onions, diced tomatoes and BBQ sauce. It is idiot-proof and only requires one pan, hence I LOVE IT!!  The recipe is originally from Carrot’s n Cake’s blog and can be found HERE.  I paired this with Trader Joe’s cornbread and string beans, although you could also serve it with rice. I have made it several times and it consistently comes out delicious, but that could also be because I’ve never cooked with chicken thighs before. Drool. I’m telling you- I’m determined to get better at this cooking thing!! I think I’m off to a solid start. I mean, mom and dad actually ate it. That’s gotta count for something.

Career: Two months ago I was accepted into a Sports Psychology Certificate program. It’s the first step towards integrating my passions of counseling and run coaching. On nights and weekends I have been completing Kinesiology coursework. I am one test and one paper away from finishing my first of six courses for this certificate. Most of my weekend will be devoted to completing my  research paper on the physiological changes that occur throughout the life span that impact marathon training in Master’s marathoners. Furthermore, I’m interested in how these physiological changes impact how Master’s athletes should alter their mental training for race day. This weekend’s gonna be off the hoooooooook with research and journal articles. After Kinesiology wraps up I will shift gears for my next class which starts in early April: Performance Enhancement. So far I’m enjoying the coursework and it’s healthily and begrudgingly keeping me busy.



Approaching the weekend like….

So it’s now nearly 10 am and I kinda want to run. Sorry this post was so disjointed. My mind feels scattered lately. Speaking of scattered here are some of my random thoughts to get you thinking.

Random Thoughts. I’ve had some random thoughts over the past week and I can’t help but wonder… Does anyone else…


* Put clean running clothes in drier to warm them up before a winter run?

* Give each leg a mere 3 flicks of the razor and think, “yeaaaa that’ll do just fine.”

* Ever go to bed before 9 pm and think “ahhhhhhhhhhhh yes, this is living?”

* Wish you could shower sitting down? No, I don’t mean a bath, I really mean shower sitting down after a LONG run when your legs are turned to jello and they’re all floopsy.

*  HAVE TO eat a scoop of ice cream immediately upon purchase no matter the time of day?

* Make up completely random songs that are really just sentences but are more fun when said to a jingly tune? Do you ever think that this is the reason you actually had a child so that you could do just this without it being weird :). Yay social norms.


* Put your damp smelly running jacket in the drier to  do a “quick wash n’ dry” in the morning?

* Like to eat dried figs as a snack AND aren’t presently collecting social security ? Please please please say yes!!

* Suspect that kleenex is secretly laced with a substance that makes you need to use more keenex???

New shoes that will make me feel like a pretty pretty princess.

And on that note I’m off to run….

Can’t stop, won’t stop.

The Lone Runner